Tommy B’s Thoughts for the day

It seem like it has been forever since you have been gone and I miss you terribly. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to watch a braves game with you now or to talk about the NFL and how you would kill all the Falcons players and just start from scratch every game. I miss you sense of humor and most of all I miss your wisdom. You never thought much of yourself as an intellectual kind of man but you had more knowledge than most professors have intellect. I really do wish you were here sometimes to help me get through this but then again if your were here I wouldn’t have the need to go through this. I have been playing the last song you sang in church today. It almost sounds like you singing it and it makes me think about how much of a beautiful voice that you had and how much I wanted to be able to sing like you when I was grown up. I realize now that I am never going to sound like you but I was given musical talent to make up for it so I guess its like a checks and balance thing. I wish I could have seen your face when I told you that I was going to go into the ministry but I wont be able to get that chance but then again you probably already knew. I can see God’s hand in everything that has happened. If I hadn’t lost you then I wouldn’t have left Gardner-Webb, I wouldn’t have spent that time over at UNCC meeting new people and realizing that some people have it worse off than I did. I wouldn’t have been able to stand up in youth give my testimony about how God was working in my life and probably most importantly I wouldn’t have been able to realize that I can rely on God for everything. Scrubs really does have something for all occasions because all I can think of is “I miss you so much it hurts sometimes” which we joke around a lot about but it really is the only way to describe what I feel inside sometimes. Today Terry, Joyce, Michael, Angela and the kids are all coming down for lunch and it is going to be so hard for me to sit there and watch them interact with one another knowing that I will never have that again. I will have people in my life that are like fathers to me but I will never have another you.